Bet you thought I'd forgotten all about you didn't you. Hiding away, ignored, nothing to say for the last 5 months. Pretty true really. I did get rather bored with the dullness of recording the mundane minutiae of my life and it was taking up too much time.
  And irony of ironies, I finally have something worthy to report but I am not prepared to say a word in what is still a public environment even if barely any fucker except myself reads this. Suffice to say this week has been dramatic and emotional and my head is in absolute fucking bits. I would apologise to anybody who stumbles upon this and is mildly piqued with interest but frankly I don't care. This isn't for you and I am using this process in a purely cathartic way. While I might not be saying on the page it is giving me an outlet to scream FUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKK! if nothing else as I can't tell a single person what is going on in my head or what may have happened. I was nearly tempted to entrust partial information to some but the opportunity may not arise and that is for the best.
   I'm not good at partial tales - all or nothing so nothing it shall be. Time will be my confidante and healer and there is still hope that part of my upset is from a misconception and I could be wrong. I fear not, and if not now then soon *cries*